I guess it’s really over huh? Your’e really over it huh?

I’ve been preparing myself for this, telling myself that its inevitable. But to tell you the truth.. It still stings a ton.

Void..

Okay, so I don’t really know me at all..
I can’t even make a simple decision without 923791824 voices telling me all sorts of things..
And now that I actually have to make some sort of choice, I can barely keep it together

I think I’m insane.

I’m NOT sure at ALL why I do certain things,
I’m certainly NOT sure about how I feel..

What are my motives?
Am I being selfish? Maybe I’m actually evil?
I’m in too deep? Or maybe, just maybe..
I have no idea…

I don’t even know if I know how to feel anymore…
I literally feel like I am a GIANT bowl of spaghetti on the inside!

I can’t think, I don’t know how to think
I’m just so unsure that I just want everything to clear out and reset!
I don’t know what I want.
It’s like my eyes can’t focus and my mind is a bit laggy too!

I’m so annoying!
Why am I so flimsy?! Why?

I feel so strange? Maybe even void?
I have no idea why I’m like this.

God help me.